So it’s been a while since I posted.... again... I vow I will try to make this a regular thing.

I’ve decided for this particular post, I’m going to write a list of songs I would consider my ‘anthems’.... I have several.

Here we go.

‘Who We Are’- Machinehead. I wanted to use this one as my walk out song when I competed in the final of Miss Alternative Australia, but alas, they wouldn’t let me. Robb's idea of using his kids in a creepy chorus in the beginning is genius, the song itself is damn amazing. I <3 IT! It pretty much sums up how I feel whenever someone starts making fun of me, or what I’m wearing, which doesn’t happen too much nowadays, but still happens. There was one instance in a nightclub a month or so ago where people decided that because I was wearing buckles, and torn fishnet that I must be into bondage and kept telling me so... Really? Brain much...

‘I Could Care Less’- Devildriver. Pretty much my ultimate ‘fuck you, and shut the fuck up’ song. It’s pretty self explanatory.

‘Beating on Death’s Door’- Lamb of God. This is possibly one of my favourite, if not my favourite song. It’s a big load of, ‘well... if you weren’t such an arsehole or an ignorant dumbass....’ It tends to remind me a bit of my highschool years with the pettiness that happens in our teenage years, but it can still be applied to many situations today, working in the hospitality industry, I feel this towards a lot of people... and a lot of man kind. They’re such an intolerable bunch for the most part, but I live in hope :)

‘Don’t Stop Dancing’- Creed. I know, I know... “Ew, Creed! Christian band!” I challenge you to go and look up their song “Bullets” and tell me what you think. I personally love Creed. I used to get up every weekend at 6am so I could watch all of Rage (A music video show we have in Australia). And I would always be excited whenever ‘With Arms Wide Open’ or ‘My Sacrifice’ would come on. For me, this song is a big ‘keep your head up and let your feet lead you.’ For the harder times, when it all just feels a bit too much.

And last but not least!

‘King of Fools’- Edguy. This would be another one of those, ‘fuck you’ songs. I do seem to like them. I love this song all over. Power Metal, how can you not love it!

And a quick update- I didn’t get through Miss Alternative, or a placing... I think they were looking for something a bit gothier... which I was/am not. Currently living in Melbourne, still looking for a house... And that’s the story of me to date.

Sorry for the absence!

Sorry I've been away, I have been so busy with work... >.< ]So much has happened!

 My first photoshoot with a real photographer was with Cass from Black Sunshine Photography. She was really helpful as I had no idea what was going on, my boyfriend at the time also joined in with me and we got to do bits and pieces on our own, plus some joint photos, here are some of my favourites!


Make up and styling by me. :D

 Next, photoshoot was with Richard. He'd come down on work for a few weeks and we had been meaning to do something for ages. There was a spot down at our local rivulet that I've been wanting to do a shoot in the second I saw it, so I finally got to do something there!!
One of the photos from this shoot also made it into my friend's blog Goths Up Trees! Who knew that a site from my little state could become so big! My picture was also featured in an article from the UK about the site, AWESOME!!

 And last but not least for my update we have Miss & Mr. Alternative 2012! I won the heat for my state along with a friend of mine, now we shall take on the rest of Australia from our little inbred island! I can't wait for the finals! The Victorian finals are being held this week end then I shall wait eagerly for the email saying when we're coming to the mainland to show them what alternatives down here are made of! It's the first year we've been able to had the competition in Tassie as we just haven't had the numbers!

My outfit was made up of two halves, one side was an elm street shirt that I'd modified, tights, New Rocks, plus belts, buckles and studs... it was my "metal side". The other half was a corset, slit top, a black tulle tutu I'd made, and stockings I'd cut up plus a pair of PVC Swing Demonias to top it off, that was my 'Goth side'. I felt this was the best way to express who I was in the shortest amount of time. We only had 3 minutes on stage to make an impression. Obviously they were impressed and I was very happy that I got asked a question about my outfit! So excited for the finals!
                           Winners!

Looking Forward

I know there are a lot of wise quotes that tell you not to look into the future too much and enjoy the present, which I attempt to do every day. But I'm uber excited for next year.


Hopefully I will be moving to Melbourne with a couple of friends and starting to live the life I want, rather than the life I am. Where I live is just so small. And I've been trying to get modelling stuff. And it's been going pretty okay so far. But I'm hoping that once I move to Melbourne I can start meeting people and getting myself out there! Uber excited!


Sad thing is I will be leaving my family behind : ( It's going to be weird not being able to go and visit my mum or dad whenever I want to see them. It's going to be hard, but I think I can do it!

New Album!

Bought a new album today. And all I have to say about it is...


New awesome EdGuy album is awesome.

First Poem I've written in a long while

So, over the course of a few years I've been teaching myself how to scream. Recently I've been looking for some form of band with not much luck in this tiny town. Especially considering I have no instrumental experience.

But today, I got a bit angry and vented it into words. Normally I just play GTA and run over as many people as I can, but I thought I'd be a bit more creative.

It is far from perfect. But,  here's my little poem...

Thou Little Empress.

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Bow down!

To the Little Empress  of all.

Do not dare to challange or question thee!

For thou shalt be received with scathing glare

and rueful bite.

Pathetic! Dwarfed in her silouette.

Her overflowing appreciation of her.

Is she so beautiful?

Thou art jealous of thee?!

But her woes are more than thou!-

Her heart strings that twang at her so.

Never has thou suffered what she has endured.

Never could thou invisage her sorrow!

How dare thee assume they understand the pain she must lament!

But on her pedestal she rests,

(It tacked with ivory and fur)

Her head deceptively resting in her broken hands,

Her forked toungue hissing behind pity seeking lips.

And although thou offers no offence.

She endevours to claw it from your likeness,

wallowing in her own insecurity,

And rends your back with insults,

Thus etching your name into Lucifer's skull.

And when confronted!

She withdraws, broken and betrayed.

"Forsooth! I did not slight thee!

I would never give offence,

Twas nearly to 'test' the loyalty

and trustworthiness of our friend!

/Pathetic./

I swear it on all that I stand for!

/Lying, cheating, jealousy/

And I am the one who has been slighted!

For they did betray me to you!

But, be assured, I did not mean what was shared,

'twas only a test. t'would never be truth,

by my troth! I swear to this likley tale!"

I want not your 'apology'

It's lace tipped with poison.

Thou, little empress...

Thou. Little. Empress.

Your words are polluted.

Your words are the rotting cadaver,

Stinking in the peripherals of my existence.

I loathe and detest thee.

For thou art a snake, slithering amongst the branches.

Nay, a snake with it's poisoned bite, and biblical evil is a compliment to thee.

Thou art thee. Thou Little Empress.

Twisted and pathetic. 

Melbourne

Made a short video of some of the things we got up to while I was away. :)

First Modelling Shoot!

Yay! I had my first modelling shoot with Black Sunshine Photography!


You can check out the shoot and Cass' other stuff on Facebook!


For a beginner model, she was very, very helpful! She let us dress up the way we wanted and helped us with poses and what not. Over all it was a really good shoot and I'm really happy with the photos!


I had an acquaintance last year enter the Miss Alternative Australia Pageant and I followed her progress and the general progress of the pageant with much enthusiasm. Anyway, this year is round two! And with more exposure it's destined to be more exciting!


Last year she was the only contestant from my state, this year there are atleast 8. Including myself. So, I'm going to be that person and ask for votes on the page!


Basically if you're in the top 6 you'll go into the semi-finals for the state where you'll be judged! After that it's off to compete with the rest of the nation!


I'm really excited, also I have another friend on there! Her name is Jess! She's an awesome gal and you should vote for her too!


Obviously, only vote for us if you like our stuff :D


Thanks for reading!